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wake up. by teewee

in writing a response to yfa’s post regarding seattle and the work and effort, i decided maybe i’ll kill a bit more time by posting something short, time: 9:57am friday, if i stay till 2:30pm, then i’ll have been at stauffer library for >24hrs, if i stay till 8:30pm and don’t go out, i’ll have been inside stauffer library for over 24hrs without stepping foot outside at all, which i doubt i’ll do because i need some coffee.

anyways, in response to yfa, yeah, stress about where to go in life, i sometimes look and see how you’ve got everything ‘set’ and/or ‘planned’ and sometimes i wish i had that too, but perhaps its because my marks are crap (but i dont like to believe its marks that hold me back….because i think if you are good at something you’d be able to excel in it in the work place), or maybe its because its biochemistry, something i REALLY don’t care about, its pretty unanimous, the overall consensus is ‘why are you in biochemistry?’, and i still have no answer to that question, and seeing lincoln study all night for some biochem400course as i slept the few hours on the couch, his one message for me was ‘get out of biochemistry while you still can’, how encouraging.

i’m not sure, i’m not sure about anything, there’s never any guarantees in life, no guarantee’s in people, school, work. when things seem to go okay for a while, something else hits, what i DO know is that HE has some sort of plan, which i think is quite comforting,

sidestory: talking to sam a few weeks ago, we got talking about how neither of us know the frosh (her at utccf) and me at kccf (although last few days i’ve gotten to know a few, theres a guy from HK who uses a MBP so as my break i went and showed him a few cool programs), but yeah, sam was saying how many of the frosh are overly keen about school etc, and i was saying, last year i told the frosh (whenever they’d be stressing crazy), “(insert name), is the God you serve not bigger than these exams? these marks? these double digit numbers that *somehow* is a ‘fair’ assessment of your knowledge?” and sam’s response was, ‘well i don’t want them to cry’ and i was thinking, but why would you cry? isn’t that so comforting? to know you have hope in something else?

i guess it’s all perspective, and faith. from a TPview, watching others stress and telling them not to stress is easy, but from the firstperson’s view, they just gotta build up faith. and how can you build faith?, by being continually tested. look at the men of faith in the Bible, how many times were they tested and failed at times. its cool to see them and be like ‘wow i wish i were ______’, but also crazier to remember that they went through so many trials.

in short, this post really is a collection of random thoughts, perhaps some editing would be nice, but no time for that!

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